for loving sake

I cant seem to not think about you today, but today is different, its like a new beginning...im not going to beg you to take me back or try and convince you im the one for you and that everything ive done, ive done for you.
because ive made horrible mistakes, ive hurt you most likely more then youve hurt me.
you just dont know it, and i cant ever tell you, i cant, and i wont.
i once wrote down..."i wish i knew what kept you around, why you dont leave and find better"
and i think i know why, because i am a caring person, im loving and supportive.
i stood by your side no matter what, through your little tiffs, i stood there and took it, straight in the face and dealt with it, because i figured thats what a good girlfriend would do.
and i still stand to that today, i still think most things i did, were the right way to go.
so as to why you left? why you stopped caring? stopped loving me?
i still dont know, and i still dont know if its real, if this is what its going to be.
i still have hope that your gonna realize soon one day that you threw away something you needed, something that kept you togather again. someone who brought light to your dull days, someone who was there, always wanting to lend a helping hand.
the love you gave me, the care, when you did show it, was unbelievable.
you made me feel like i was the only one in your world, the only one that mattered.
our 2 month anniversery was adorable, and treasuring, even if it wasnt anything special.
just knowing you went through trouble to surprise me, make me smile.
that made me happy, more than youll ever know.
ill still ask myself everyday why you left, left me alone to deal with this world.
i still hope that youll come back for me.
but im done wishing that youll be my hero, because you never will be.
and im just going to have to accept that.

no matter what ill always love you though...and ill always want to be with you.