i just want you to know,

baby your the sun,

you keep burning me,

time after time.

all that you ever said,

more and more lies.

you cant keep your promies,

and you cant keep me.

i just want you to know,

want you to know,

i still always think about you,

i think about you so.

youve hurt me more then words can describe,

more then there is to say.

ive cried more times,

then i should have to.

ive loved you endlessly,

you stopped caring.

i want to move on,

but your like stuck to me.

i just want you to know,

want you to know,

i care for you,

i care for you so.

your like air,

i need you.

im like a sickness to you,

you just want me gone.

you keep bringing the pain back,

i just want it to not hurt anymore.

every word you said,

made me more in love.

but what i didnt know...

was it was all pretend.

i just want you to know,

want you to know,

i miss you,

i miss you so.

i always will,

it wont ever end.

but ive noticed,

me and you,

wont happen again.

im saying goodbye,

because thats all thats left to do.

be happy baby,

even though it means nothing to you.

i just want you to know,
want you to know,

i love you,

i love you so.

im done

trying to find some to replace you,

because 

really

your 

just

irreplaceable.

Dear Love...

I, respect you,
-I,care about you;
--I, trust you,
---I, think about you,
----I, dream about you,
-----I, hope for you,
------I, try for you,
-------I, smile for you,
--------I, cry for you,
---------I, miss you,
----------I, love you.
You, made me smile,
-You, made me cry,
--You, made me safe,
---You, made me scared,
----You, completed me,
-----You, destroyed me,
------You, loved me,
-------You, hated me,
--------You, missed me,
---------You, forgot me,
----------You, were everything.

Hello You,

Im sorry i still love you, so much.

phoenix chasem crawford

sometimes i miss you, so much.
sometimes i wish you were here, so you could cheer me up.
sometimes i wish you were here, so we could laugh at all the dumb people.
sometimes i wish you were here, so you could make my night.
sometimes i wish you were here, so you could tell me how amazing you thought i was.
sometimes i wish you were here, because you were like my best friend, a boyfriend, and a brother all at the same time, even though you never really were any of those.
sometimes i wish you were here, because i miss the living heck out of you, and its so hard without you.
sometimes i wish you were here, because when ever i think i dont want to be here, it makes it that much easier knowing that if i wasnt, i could find you.
sometimes i wish you were here, because you always knew exactly what to say to cheer me up, or make me smile.
sometimes i wish you were here, so then someday we could meet and my life would be complete.

no one will ever really understand how much my life changed, how much you leaving impacted my life.

i hope your always looking down on me, and hoping the best for me, because..
im living for you, im living to prove to you, all the doubt i had...i can change.
i can make my life worth living.

all for you baby.
i love you, always.

for loving sake

I cant seem to not think about you today, but today is different, its like a new beginning...im not going to beg you to take me back or try and convince you im the one for you and that everything ive done, ive done for you.
because ive made horrible mistakes, ive hurt you most likely more then youve hurt me.
you just dont know it, and i cant ever tell you, i cant, and i wont.
i once wrote down..."i wish i knew what kept you around, why you dont leave and find better"
and i think i know why, because i am a caring person, im loving and supportive.
i stood by your side no matter what, through your little tiffs, i stood there and took it, straight in the face and dealt with it, because i figured thats what a good girlfriend would do.
and i still stand to that today, i still think most things i did, were the right way to go.
so as to why you left? why you stopped caring? stopped loving me?
i still dont know, and i still dont know if its real, if this is what its going to be.
i still have hope that your gonna realize soon one day that you threw away something you needed, something that kept you togather again. someone who brought light to your dull days, someone who was there, always wanting to lend a helping hand.
the love you gave me, the care, when you did show it, was unbelievable.
you made me feel like i was the only one in your world, the only one that mattered.
our 2 month anniversery was adorable, and treasuring, even if it wasnt anything special.
just knowing you went through trouble to surprise me, make me smile.
that made me happy, more than youll ever know.
ill still ask myself everyday why you left, left me alone to deal with this world.
i still hope that youll come back for me.
but im done wishing that youll be my hero, because you never will be.
and im just going to have to accept that.

no matter what ill always love you though...and ill always want to be with you.

yahtzee

you really come to appreciate life when you pick up the game of yahtzee and on the first roll, there you go..there it is, yahtzee...
the start to a perfect game.
but i didnt continue to play, i just set the game down and walked away. because to me, that was the start to a new beginning, a realization that things are gonna be okay no matter what happens.

even if i love him, and he doesnt want to be with me anymore...

even if im not the smartest and i dont know where my life is going...

even if i dont have many friends...

even if over half the time im completely out of the loop of living...

its all gonna be okay, everything is gonna be okay.

being young and in love, its a beautiful thing, it really is,
but its also a really painful thing..because most of the time its not going to last.
you also never forget your first love, i wont ever forget him...no matter what.
hes a part of my life, a huge part, and hes never gonna leave.

sometimes, we just have to stop and think...
about the good things...about what really matters...
even though thats impossible for me 90% of the time.
but you know what?
ill learn someday, i really will.
but for right now, im just glad to be having a smile on my face,
and the tears dried up for a bit.

so be it, so be life.
let the living continue.

why why why...

i wonder what went wrong, to end up in this place,

and all i can come up with is its my mistake.

things were good, almost perfect,

something changed, and with it corruption.

i think long, i think hard,

but nothing tells me what went wrong.

i want you back in my arms,

but i know its now just a distant fade.

i thought i needed you,

but something happened...

something came true.

your no different baby,

you are the same,

and so very not sane.