welcome home,

is it bad 

that hes the only thing i still wish for? 

that, that only thing i want his for him to say he loves me, everything was worth it, 

and that someday, it will be always and forever.

rants

id give up anything, just to get a goodnight text,

just to fall asleep knowing youd be thinking of me.

ive never met anyone who so completely controls me like you do,

its as if you own my emotions, my actions, my life.

id do just about anything for you.

sometimes i wish we lived closer, just so i could be with you when i felt like everything else was falling through.

i dont think ill ever be happy unless you love me.

your words

"sometimes i wonder if your the only girl who will care about me"

i think to myself...is it really that bad? is it that bad that im that girl that cares about you?

are you not satisfyed with the care i give you?

are you never going to love me the way you use to?

is anything ever going to the be same, am i ever going to be happy again?

you need to understand//.

your always here to point out my mistakes,

maybe for once you should just be here to make smile.

random

im giving up everything, everything for you

mistake or bad choice?

either way its gonna happen

your the only person whos ever built me up 5 times bigger than i was,

but then torn me down 10 times worse.

i can have a million reasons to hate you,

but my heart only needs one good one to love you.

sometimes im dissapointed in myself, sometimes i lose my track in life, but in the end at least ill always know who i was on the inside.

im never gonna be the solution to your problem, so i dont really know why i try.

all about you

you lie to cause people the pain your feeling, i lie so you dont have to feel the pain id be dealing out.

i can think of a million reasons,

you cant even think of one,

that tells me your a fake, a fraud,

nothing worth fighting for.

i wait everyday for teh day you realize you do need me,

but thats the day i wont be there anymore.

i love you, but i hate myself for it.

all the bad you do makes me not want to miss you.

when i think of you

when i think of you,

i think of sunshine on a cloudy day, smiles on a sad face, and happy memories all around the place.

when i think of you,

i think of rain pouring every day, frowns that never go away, and memories you cant erase.